why do i try

Sometimes, I wonder why I bother trying to save him.

He just hurts me.

And I use all my time, all my energy, to keep him alive, and when he’s well enough, he just strikes me down.

He’s fishing.

And I’m not about to fall for the bait.

I’ve learned my lesson.

I’ve swam this small pond so many times,

And fallen for every trick

Too many times

To fall for it again.

I’m swimming

And swimming

Trying to find an exit

That won’t kill him.

Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever find an escape.

Cuz’ pretty soon I’ll just stop trying.

-E