my advice

someone told me
"why are you depressed. you have no reason to be. it just annoys me...."


i was shaking


and i emailed a friend who said this


"The general message he's attempting to convey is just. You really do put yourself down too much. What is fundamentally wrong is that he's annoyed at the fact that you're depressed. That's just stupid. And... stupid. He wants to see you happy, not because he doesn't like you but because he does. He wants to see you happy even if you're not. He wants you to pretend, and to be fake with all the hypocricy in the statement.
He thinks he understands much more than he does, and he takes on people with nothing but thin latex gloves, confident the skin on the palm of his hand will hold to the flesh, but in reality, people are not simply people. They are scales and stones, and shards of glass and ice, and silk and clouds and rain.

Don't get me wrong, aaron is still an ass. What he said isn't any better. But here is some light shed. I don't know. Maybe I'm just feeling inspired.

He's ignorant. That is all. 

In fact, so was your friend the other day. The quote he spat out at you was truly misunderstood. While i understand you were in need of a bit more warmth and maturity, he meant it for the best. He was ignorant to the bluntness of the statement, and that is what threw you off. You shouldn't feel angry at all the ignorant people. Feel frustrated, disturbed, shocked. But there is so much ignorance to the world. If you respond with such fire you will reduce yourself to nothing but ashes. Pity the ignorant, and if you want, illuminate their horizons a bit. Everyone is a little ignorant, a little shallow. Some... more than others.  

Don't beat yourself up. 

Hope you feel better. "


i dont deserve his friendship
and i hope he understands how much he means to me.


he is also a writer.
see his works here
needsomemoresleep.wordpress.com